Just rolled out of bed even though 2 hours ago I turned off the lights to go to bed....

Really, for the past few months I haven't been able to sleep well and I wake up 15 minutes before I have to walk to class and on weekends I sleep in till like noon because I'm up all night rolling around in bed because I can't fucking sleeeeeeeeeeep. Then I feel like I'm dead and I come home from class and I'll be like "ok time for a quick 30 min nap" which always turns into like 2 hours haha.


How does one sleep...?


I guess I have so many thoughts in my head I can't concentrate on sleeping. I try turning on music which used to help me but isn't anymore...it still takes me hours to sleep. It doesn't matter what time I actually turn off the lights  and go to bed, I still don't fall asleep until like 4 am.

I try focusing on just sleeping and stop thinking but not helping.

Sometimes drinking enough alcohol helps knock me out but I can't be doing that all the time, and sometimes it can make it worse waking up.

Deep breathing to relax used to work but won't anymore.

Maybe I should take Benadryl or Nyquil to knock me the fuck out xD

I guess I'm thinking of all the things I wanna get done and even though I don't actually feel stressed doing what I love, it stresses me out when I try to sleep? I dunno. Maybe I just got used to being up late drawing and getting work done that my body's like "fuck you, no sleep, DRAW ALL OF THE THINGS."

I thought it was because I covered myself in blankets and it got hot, though sleeping on top of my covers doesn't help either, I'm still rolling around in bed. My bed is very comfy, which doesn't help in the morning when I'm dead tired and trying to get out of bed...